Thursday, December 9, 2010

Time Flies and Stress Multiplies

William "Liam" Bellerose was born in early September at 37 weeks old. He is 3 1/2 months old now and growing like a weed.

Our family has moved and we are trying to sell our home. The deal could fall thru if we don't find someone willing to get the lights turned back on under their name. The problem is most people I know have bad credit. What do you expect with this economy?

The car will be repoed in 6 days unless we can come up with $900+. David is looking into selling his swords from Angel Swords.

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

35 Week Appt

I had my 1st internal done at OB office since 6 weeks pregnant. Ugh! My OB said my internals hurt more now because of my excess weight. I also had 2 vials of blood drawn.

I am 1cm dilated barely. I had my Group B strep test done. My BP was 122/74. I have gained nothing in the past week. Liam is estimated at weighing 6 pounds 4 ounces and being tall. We shall see! Liam is head down and ready. My OB said he would not stop delivery if I was to go into labor now.

I am tired, sick to my stomach, and have back pain. It is all normal, Yeah!!

Thursday, August 5, 2010

Not Much Going On

The days are going by so quickly now.

Ryan will need to get his tonsils out in October. I can't believe I am the mom of an almost 3yo. 54 more days!!!

I am tired of this heat in Houston. It can be Fall any day now.

David will be home soon and that means Liam will be born soon also. I go to the OB every week and it is just routine now.

Sunday, July 11, 2010

July 11, 2010

Ryan enjoyed his first week of play school/day camp. He doesn't like to sit and watch TV in the dark and that is the only place he had issues. He loved going swimming. Ryan goes back to play school next week.

Ryan has been constipated and having reflux issues again.

Ryan, my friend, Lesley, and I are going to see The Wiggles in concert in August. I am excited. 

I am packing my hospital bag and registering soon. My baby shower is in 2 weeks. My OB doesn't think I will make it to 38 weeks pregnant due to blood pressure and swelling issues.

David is doing well and excited to come home.

I am starting to plan Ryan's 3rd Birthday Party. It will be a Mickey party. He likes Wiggles, but Mickey is his fave right now.

Monday, June 21, 2010

Catch Up

In case you were wondering, I passed my GTT with flying colors and even was on the low side like last time.

My in-laws still baffle me.

Ryan starts toddler camp soon. I will have free time and not sure what to do with it. LOL!! I might be able to clean my house and organize a few things without having a special helper.

Fathers Day was okay. I spent time at in-laws house.

Ryan is doing good and growing like a weed. His 3T pj shirts are hard to get on and off his head now. I just bought them in May. Ryan still holds crayons and scribbles with his left hand.

Liam is doing well also. He is kicking and moving every day. I am in my 3rd trimester and there is an end in sight. One moment Liam is head down and then he is breech. He loves kicking my left side. I am doing every 2 week appts now. The OB is not sure when we will induce.

I have a crib, pack n play, one blanket, lots of clothes for newborn and 0 - 3 months, car seat, extra seat base, a double stroller, a baby book, and 3 diapers for Liam. I still need to get more stuff. I am trying to wait until after the shower to shop, but I am not the most patient person in the world.

Thursday, June 3, 2010

Week by Week

I am almost into my 3rd trimester, Yeah! How did that happen?

I had 2 doctor appts this week and i go for my 3 hour GTT tomorrow.

Wednesday -
The ultrasound went well. The heart looks great. Liam is still measuring 4 days behind my due date. My placenta has moved up and looks good. I do have a lot of fluid and that could mean I have gestational diabetes. The tech says my fluid is 20.5 and it should be under 18 at this time. The tech said it is still in the normal range though, they like it to stay under 25. Liam weighs 1lb 10oz right now.

Today -
My OB says my fluid looks normal to him and some women just have more fluid.

My bp was 138/70. I lost 3 pounds. My total weight gain for this pregnancy is 2 pounds.

My OB says my symptoms sound like my hypoglycemia is back and I need to eat better and more on a schedule. He also said that if I do have GD, he believes I can manage it with diet without any issues.

I am going every 2 weeks now to monitor things like sugar levels.

He told me that I don't have to register at the hospital for another 6 weeks. He gave me the okay to eat lean turkey and lean roast beef. He says that it is more likely to get listeria from un-pasterized cheese than lunch meat. I am going shopping tomorrow if I am up to it after my 3 hour GTT.

He said as I was leaving that it looks like I will be delivering at 38 weeks to be on the safe side. Only time will tell.


Tuesday, May 18, 2010

My In-Laws are a great source.....

....of anger for me!

I find them disrespectful, rude, know it alls. They give babies meds that should be only for adults. They all smoke with no air circulation and they have hardly any carpet in their home. I am talking about 4+ people smoking all at the same time. There is no central AC or heat in their home.They don't mop or sweep often. 

My MIL, SIL, and BIL live next store to my AIL, UIL, CIL and his daughter. My MIL lives in a trailer that she has received notice from the city about. My AIL live in a house.

When they had dogs they would let them pee and poop on the floor and maybe clean it up when they saw it.

My aunt in law told me that I never had a miscarriage because I wasn't in a lot of pain when it happened. My aunt in law would rather scream no and hit a child with a fly swatter instead of child proofing their home.

My uncle in law has been verbally and physically abusive towards David. He has also told me that my house is too clean and that is why Ryan used to get sick a lot. 

When they want money, they call us!

My MIL always comments on how dirty my house is when David is not home, but says nothing while he is home. My MIL has been known for either not buckling kids into their care seats or not buckling the car seat into the car and not really caring. My MIL tries to feed Ryan food he is allergic to. I gave my MIL a car and she ran a red light and destroyed it. I paid 2/3 of the price of her last car and she ran it into the ground. My MIL doesn't think buying a car seat from a garage sale is dangerous.My MIL thinks I am protective of Ryan since I won't let him go anywhere alone with her or spend the night with her alone. My MIL smokes in bed and falls asleep. There is burn holes in her bedding and carpet around her bed. My MIL's on and off again boyfriend is a druggie and drinks a lot. He has been physically and verbally abusive towards her.My MIL has had 2 failed marriages and comments on my marriage about 5 times a year. She usually tells me she is not sure how it works or what David sees in me.My MIL has gone to countless doctor appts for Ryan and heard what the doctor says about smoking and allergies and then tells me the doctors are wrong. I have Ryan calling MIL, Oma. It means Granny in German. My MIL has turned around and started having her great nephew and niece calling her Oma. I find that disrespectful since she is not their granny. Ryan is currently her only grandchild.

Recently, my MIL was insulted that she won't be in the delivery room when Liam is born. She also told me that I make it hard for poor people to buy any baby gifts because I want BPA free bottles. Ryan had reflux and allergies as a baby, so we used Dr. Brown bottles. They are not cheap. I won't buy a car seat from a garage sale, so I am snobby.

My SIL is 17yo and uses her cell phone at the dinner table. She is failing 2 classes in school and doesn't think she needs to do homework. She is too tired from school to do it. My SIL has a boyfriend who is 18yo and dropped out of high school. He had a job, but quit it before they fired him for showing up late. SIL wants to join the military in July 2011, but she needs to lose about 100 pounds and graduate high school first.

I am at a loss when it comes to all of this. They act like they are normal and I am the stupid one. I want to move away, but my husband wants to stay.

David says that when he comes home for good, we won't be around his family. David says he is coming home for good in Feb. 2011, but I have heard that before. David calls his mother a bitch constantly. David and I bought a house in November 2006 and he really hasn't had a chance to live in it and he wants to. The economy sucks everywhere and leaving here might not be the best move. I am trying to figure out if our mental state is worth all this.

I am no where close to perfect and I have made mistakes, but my in-laws stress me out a lot. I had a miscarriage at 8 weeks in 1997 and it took almost 10 years to get pregnant with Ryan. Ryan is my miracle and I don't want to chance his health to people who think they know better. They make me cry and talk to complete strangers about me and not being able to have Ryan overnight.

I want Ryan to have a good relationship with his grandmother. My parents are deceased. I don't drive because I am afraid to and have a depth perception problem.

Any ideas on what I can do?

Thursday, May 13, 2010

The past 2 weeks....


David has come and gone! The time went by so fast. I won't see him again for another 16 1/2 weeks or so.

While David was home, we went on the Galveston Ferry. went to Rainforest Cafe, had a surprise birthday party for David, took Ryan to the ped, rearranged the upstairs of our home, and made the backyard into a Ryan playland.

Ryan is good and growing. He is 32.7lbs and 37 in. tall. Liam is doing well. The bedding for the boys is here. I am now waiting on the crib to get here. Ryan has moved up from the toddler bed to the twin bed. He is doing well so far.

I am still torn between a double or single stroller. Ryan is a runner. We haven't tried a backpack leash yet. He did not want to sit or stand on the back part of a sit and stand stroller.

Mother's Day was a wash out, David and his cousin spent all day putting a swing set together. I had my husband home, but I was a bit bummed that there was no real expression of thanks for doing a good job. I guess I am being petty and should just grow up. I just would have loved someone to say let me do the laundry or vacuum the house for you.

Wednesday, April 28, 2010

Not Much To Say

I had a great lunch date with my old and new friends yesterday. Mexican is good!

David should be home in less than 24 hours! I haven't heard from him in 14 hours or so.

I am not sure what to buy for Liam. What do babies need? What did your baby use?

I stubbed my toe while stepping over laundry. Ouch! I have 3 loads of laundry to do.

I need to do the dishes, fold laundry, clean 1 more toliet, make my bed, and take all trash out.

Saturday, April 24, 2010

April 24, 2010

Allergies are getting the best of me! My eyes hurt, I keep sneezing, and I feel like I need a plumber for my nose.

I went to a church picnic at my in-laws church. The music was good. The food was decent. The wind was blowing and my SIL, who I was paying to help with Ryan, couldn't seem to be bothered with him. She did have to sing with her Praise Team counterparts and was great.

When did people stop offering their chairs to their elders? I am tired of seeing so much disrespect. I see people wearing hats inside churches and restaurants. I see people using cell phones, game systems, and reading books while at the dinner table.

Ryan went into a bouncy house and loved it. It was the first time he didn't scream his head off while inside it. I was so happy.

Ryan keeps chewing on things. He will chew on string, blankets, cards, clothes, and play food.

Thursday, April 22, 2010

Happy Earth Day!

My ultrasound was yesterday and all is well. My OB did the AFP test too early and that caused the bad results. I am having a boy, 100% sure!
Risk for Downs Syndrome and T18 is 1 in 10,000.
Risk for Neural tube defects is 1 in 5,400.
I saw the baby's face, legs, arms, hands, fingers, feet, and toes.
I was told I have a low lying placenta and will be going back on June 2nd for another ultrasound.
The June 2nd ultrasound will show them if the placenta has moved and what the heart looks like.

The name for our new little boy is William David. He will be named after his grandfathers. We will call him Liam.

I bought the bedding for the boys last night. It is pirate themed. David helped pick that out.

David will be home soon.

Friday, April 16, 2010

April 16th

I took a nap today with Ryan and woke up feeling like crap. My head hurt the most. I didn't take any tylenol. I only take meds when I have to. I feel better now four hours later.

My best friend is going through some crap and that bothers me.

I am nervous about my pregnancy and what the ultrasound next week holds in store for me. I am not worried about my heart breaking, I am worried about David's heart breaking. I want to buy baby stuff and enjoy it all. I  feel pregnant and I feel like my stomach has changed shape.

I gave all of Ryan's baby stuff away. All I have in the crib, the crib mattress, and some burp cloths. Everything else was given away. I have a playpen that I bought at BRU during trade in days.

Good News is I can run Netflix through my Wii now. It is cool. Ryan is watching Barney right now while chewing on the wing of his dragon pillow. Ryan loves to chew on things.

David works in Iraq and is supposed to be home on April 28th, but somehow Delta shows no reservation for him. I will be so pissed if he is not in my arms on April 28th.

Thursday, April 15, 2010

My Spirituality

In 1973, I was baptized in a Lutheran Church and I haven't attended many Lutheran services since then.

My parents were not big on church, so when I went it was with friends or alone. I went to many Christian churches and attended Bible Camp.

As an adult, I have been to Catholic, UU, Baptist, Penecostal, and Church of Christ services. I have also been to a Shabbat.

I have been through the classes to become a Catholic and even had my marriage blessed in a Catholic Church.

I left the Catholic Church in mid- 2002 when I was told that God had a dress code.

Before I tell you how I label myself, let me tell you my beliefs.

I practice magick. I am a Reiki Master. I am a Priestess of Kitchen Witchery. I am a High Priestess of Celtic Fae. I follow Rhiannon, Brigit, Morgan, and Bast. I use Cernunnos, Loki, or Hotei, if I need a God for something. I get visions and use dream magick.I use divination - runes, tarot, astrology, numerology, and tea readings monthly. I watch the moon phases and pay attention to natal charts. I practice do what you will, but harm none. It is also called the Golden Rule.

I believe there is something to learn from every religion and every religion is valid.

I attend church services and functions regularly. Just 2 weeks ago, I was at the local Church of Christ service. Next week, I will attend a service at my in laws Baptist church. I love learning from different churches, but one service a month usually reminds me why I don't label myself a Christian.

I am all for homosexuality and the freedom to marry anyone. I think people should have the right to choose birth control. I am a big supporter of a Woman's right to choose. I do believe that Jesus Christ existed.

I don't believe Jesus Christ died on the cross for me and that there is no female counterpart to a God. I don't believe Mary was impregnated by God and Joseph just took this responsibility on because he was nice. I don't believe the time period Jesus supposedly was born in was winter. I don't understand why some Christians can't accept other religions.

I will teach my beliefs to my children.

My husband follows Morgan and Ares. He dislikes Christian church.

Ryan has had a paganning on December 31, 2007. He was blessed by Fae, Shaman, Druid, Catholic, and Christian representatives. My new baby will also have a paganning in September 2010.

So how do I label myself? I call myself a Pagan, but many friends label me as an Ecclectic Spiritualist.

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

My SoulMate

In May 1996 at 2am, I was awaken by my friend and her company. They were laughing and I was sleeping in a bedroom with my current boyfriend.

I walked out there and got sucked into the conversation and the next thing I know I am giving a guy a back massage, so my friend could flirt with his friend. Laugh!! I had only known this guy for 7 hours or so.

Two months later, my boyfriend and I broke up. I needed a date to go out to a country bar with my friend and her boyfriend. I didn't want to be the 3rd wheel. Back rub Man jumped at the chance. This was Tuesday,  July 9, 1996.

My friend's name is Jen and her boyfriend was Henry at the time. Henry and back rub man were roommates at El Toro Marine Base.  Jen had a 2yo daughter, named Jenique, at the time.

The next day, back rub man made us all dinner. I had frito pie for the 1st time that night. Back Rub man served Jenique, Me, and Jen. When Henry asked where his dinner was, back rub man said, "You are not under 18yo and you don't have a vagina, serve yourself!" I was in LOVE!!!!

On July 13th, we all went to the Orange County Fair and had a great time.

In August 1996, back rub man and I went to a jewelry store and bought me an engagement ring. The ring in the case fit me perfectly and I was able to leave the store with it. How often does that happen?  Back Rub man asked my father for my hand in marriage.

On August 17, 1996 - Back Rub Man asked me to marry him on Redondo Beach Pier.  I said yes and he was shaking.

We started planning a November 1997 wedding.  That didn't happen!

November 10, 1996, the Marine Corps Birthday, we headed to Las Vegas to get married. We only told my dad. I had never met my future in-laws either. Within 2 hours of getting to Vegas, we were hitched.

It all started with a back rub to help Jen out. That was the best back rub I have ever given and I am sure glad I did. I LOVE David!!!

In closing, I only knew David 4 months or so before I married him. This November 10th, we will be celebrating our 14th Wedding Anniversary. I am truly blessed!!!!   The deities knew what they were doing that early morning back in May 1996.

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

My Job

I work from home and have been doing this since November 2009.

I am a Gold Canyon demonstrator. I sell candles.

My current catalog -

I can take orders for the above catalog until April 30th. A new catalog comes out on May1st.

Gold Canyon candles burn evenly and smell great. There are tons of different scents.

Cool burning wax, edible, and the lady who started it all just wanted to stay home with her kids and make money.

Gold Canyon doesn't just have candles, there is cleaning products, car fresheners, bookmarks, diffusers, and other neat stuff.

If you like candles, give Gold Canyon a try!

Monday, April 12, 2010


Throughout my life, I have had a dog, birds, cats, and fish.

I remember having a dog when I was real little, but I just remember it was big. His name was Henry and he was brown and short hair.

The 1st pet I really remember was a bird named Bobby. Bobby would would talk and give kisses.

My dad seemed to alway have fish. The tank was pretty, but fish are boring.

I have had a lot of cats in my life. Minnie, Tiger, and Medusa - RIP.

My current fur babies are Keira and Raven.

Keira is almost 10 years old and weighed 10.5 pounds at her last visit. Keira is a long hair and an orange tabby.

Raven is almost 8 years old and weighed the same as Keira. Raven is a short hair torte.

David wants some fish.

My cats used to be inside cats until recently. I have been noticing that Keira wants outside. She goes to the tarp that covers the BBQ grill and just sits underneath it. She feels lighter to me. It might just be she is shedding her winter coat, but I am getting a weird vibe off her.

Fertility RollerCoaster

David and I got married in November 1996.

In January 1997, I found out I was pregnant and we were overjoyed. I told David in a TRU parking lot and he locked the keys in the car. Luckily, my door was still unlocked. Laugh! At 8 weeks pregnant, I had a miscarriage. That was in Feb. 1997.

Through the years we tried clomid, timed sex, different sexual positions, vitamins, special diets, and some medical tests. We didn't have medical insurance all the time.

In Feb. 2005, David got a job that had great insurance and we were able to get serious about fertility. I found out I had PCOS. David got his sperm analyzed and he was perfect. I had a HSG done and was told one of tubes was blocked. I had a surgery to clear out the blocked tube in July 2006. After the surgery, the RE said the tube wasn't truly blocked. I did have polyps and scar tissue though, That was all removed.

I started Weight Watchers in October 2005 at 356 pounds.

In August 2006, we tried injectbles and an IUI. It was a failed attempt.
In January 2007, we tried again. The amount of meds was upped and we scored!!!! I was 203 pounds when I got pregnant.

At 5 weeks along, I started to spot and was terrified. Things settled down a few days later. The RE said the bleeding was the 2 eggs they didn't fertilize during IUI were sloughing off.

In September 2007, Ryan was born vaginally.

David and I didn't plan for anymore kids and didn't use birth control. Why should we? It took 2 IUIs, a RE, and 10 years to get pregnant with Ryan.

Surprise!!!! In January 2010, I found out I was pregnant again. I couldn't believe how that could happen. I was way overweight and there was no medical help. I weighed 298 pounds.

At 12 weeks along, the NT tech said there is an 80% chance that I am having another boy. 

I am 17 1/2 weeks along and last week I found out that my baby has a 5% chance of having Trisomy 18. I will be having another ultrasound on April 21st to see if we can find anything out. I am scared and worried.

In wrapping this up, I am on my 3rd pregnancy. I have had one miscarriage at 8 weeks in 1997. I have a handsome son named Ryan and I am expecting a new baby 2 weeks before Ryan's 3rd Birthday.


My name is Leslie and I am 37yo. I currently live in SE Texas. I am married to David and we have been married almost 14 years. I have a 2 1/2 year old son named Ryan and he has been called "spirited" and a "heathen" before and that is why my blog is titled so. I am currently 17 weeks pregnant and hopeful to have another spirited heathen in September.

I have 4 brothers and 2 sisters. They are all half. I am the only child between my parents. My parents got married after I was born, but told me my entire life they got married years before. 

I like to write, spend time with friends, swim, plan parties, spend money, and be with my family. My favorite vacation spot is Walt Disney World. I like the colors pink, green, red, purple, black, and sometimes brown.

I am not big into cooking, but I can operate a microwave and can cook easy things. I can make french toast and pancakes, but don't ask me to cook a steak. My husband is the chef in the family.